1 O LORD, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief. 2 Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you. (Psalm 143:1-2 NIV)
I am nearing the end of the Book of Psalms. I’ve noticed that David writes often about his troubles with others, the trouble he has with himself, and his desperate need for God’s forgiveness, help, and guidance. That pretty much sums up my life as well.
I have troubles with those around me. I would like to think that if all of the broken relationships could be reconciled, if all of those who do not like me would suddenly love me, and if there weren’t so many “games” being played that life would be amazingly good. I know that isn’t the case. I would still have to deal with the trouble that comes from within my own heart and mind. My heart can be as hard as concrete. My mind can be so ungodly and lead me to places that God never would. I can say all of the right things one moment and then, in the next, do something that totally contradicts what I say I believe. I am a mess. I am a sinner. David said, “Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you.” I know the truth of that statement; both for me and for others.
I need God’s forgiveness like a flower needs the rain, like a kite needs the wind, and like a child in tears needs her mother’s comforting arms. I’m in need of more than God’s forgiveness. I need His help. I’ve been forgiven and yet I find myself in the same battles all over again, and again. I need His help to change my heart, sure up my defenses, and help me gain the victory. I also need His guidance. Life at best can oftentimes be a maze; at worst, a deep dark pit that closes in around me. David said, in the 23rd Psalm, that God is his Shepherd who leads him. Where did God lead him? He led David to a green pasture, beside the still waters, as well as through the valley of the shadow of the death. I would rather be led to any of those places by the Shepherd than to be left to myself to navigate this life.
My prayer this morning, Lord, is that You would keep me aware of my need for You every moment throughout this day. Let me never be led to believe that if I could alleviate all my troubles that I would have the life I dream of. You alone are life O Lord.